When the time is right...

Do good things really come to those who wait? I don't quite believe so, but healing can. From the things I've read concerning my situation, the average length of time it's taken the survivors to find themselves able to forgive their attackers, has been 10-15 years. Dear Lord, I hope I don't take that long! I want to forgive him, he's a lost child of God, created by my Heavenly Father & loved by Him, just like me. But I have layers and layers of emotions to peel off first. Anger, humiliation, grief, fear, rage, anxiety, numbness, and a plethora of others.

I work through each one as they come, and come again. I look forward to the day when they don't bombard me so. In te beginning, I had to live minute by minute. After a few weeks I graduated to hour to hour. Now I'm kind of between day to day and week to week. My verse today: I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

This verse is actually a wall decal on my living room wall, so I can look at it nearly all the time. It's my reminder to keep ploughing on, because I have Him to help me along, I can't fail, He won't let me.

Living day to day will get easier, because He is holding my hand. And one day, one year, hopefully much sooner than a decade, with Jesus' help, I'll forgive him.